章节十四

陈寻最终没能和方茴说上只言片语，那句为什么自然也没能问出口。

Chen Xun ultimately didn’t get to say even a word to Fang Hui, and that “why” remained unasked.

放学的时候，他看着方茴和乔燃一起走出教室，他们默契的步幅一致，就连迈出教室的那刻都是一同伸出左脚。

After school, he watched as Fang Hui walked out of the classroom with Qiao Ran. Their steps were in sync, even when they stepped out, they both advanced with their left foot at the same time.

方茴用余光看见了陈寻，她知道他一直在注视着自己。

Fang Hui caught a glimpse of Chen Xun in her peripheral vision; she knew he had been watching her all along.

可是她没有回头，哪怕仅仅冲他微笑一下。不是不想，是不敢。

Yet she didn’t turn back, not even to smile at him. It wasn’t that she didn’t want to, but that she didn’t dare.

就在方茴打算继续落寞、默默走远的时候，她不会想到，第二天黑板上会写着这样的字来迎接她。

Just as Fang Hui was about to continue her lonely walk away, little did she know that the next day, she would be welcomed by such words written on the blackboard.

那是看不出笔迹、歪歪扭扭、却分两沉重的六个字：方茴喜欢陈寻。

It was a messy scrawl, difficult to read, yet painfully heavy: "Fang Hui likes Chen Xun."

那天是方茴和小草负责码车，方茴早早就到了，但小草却一直没有出现。

That day, Fang Hui and Xiao Cao were responsible for organizing the bikes. Fang Hui arrived early, but Xiao Cao was nowhere to be found.

乔燃来的时候，看见方茴正费力的把赵烨的二八弯把捷安特码齐。他忙停好了车，走过来帮她。

When Qiao Ran arrived, he saw Fang Hui struggling to align Zhao Ye's bike properly. He quickly parked his own bike and came over to help her.

“我来吧，赵烨也不把车放好了再走！就数他的车占地！”乔燃接过手来说。

"Let me do it; Zhao Ye didn't even park properly before leaving! His bike takes up the most space!" Qiao Ran took over.

“他迟到了，着急训练，车往这儿一扔就跑了。”方茴苦笑着说。

"He was late and in a rush for practice. He just tossed his bike here and ran off," Fang Hui said with a bitter smile.

“怎么就你一个人？小草呢？”

"Why are you alone? Where’s Xiao Cao?"

“她还没来，可能是忘了。”

"She hasn't arrived yet; maybe she forgot."

“她啊，成天忙忙活活的，也不知道都想什么呢！”乔燃叹了口气，使劲把一辆自行车推了进去。

"That girl is always so busy. I wonder what she’s thinking!" Qiao Ran sighed as he pushed a bicycle inside with force.

“你回去吧，我自己就行。”

"You can go back now; I'll manage by myself."

“没事，我帮你吧！对了，今天吃早点了么？”乔燃关切的说，“要是没吃，现在赶紧去啊！”

"No way, I’ll help you! By the way, did you have breakfast yet?" Qiao Ran asked with concern, "If not, hurry up and go eat!"

“吃了。”方茴感激的笑了笑，“谢谢你！”

"I already ate," Fang Hui smiled gratefully, "Thank you!"

乔燃摆摆手，也腼腆的笑了。

Qiao Ran waved his hand and shyly smiled back.

小草和陈寻几乎是踩着七点半早自习的铃到的。

Xiao Cao and Chen Xun arrived just as the morning self-study bell rang at 7:30.

乔燃和方茴都准备回教室了，他们才推着车从校门口飞奔而来。

Qiao Ran and Fang Hui were getting ready to return to the classroom when they rushed in with the bikes.

陈寻的头发支楞着，顶着大大的黑眼圈，一看就是起晚了。

Chen Xun's hair was unkempt, and he had big dark circles under his eyes—it was obvious he had overslept.

小草到了才想起今天还要码车，一路上不停的向方茴道歉。

Once Xiao Cao arrived, she suddenly remembered that they needed to organize the bikes today. She kept apologizing to Fang Hui along the way.

四个人叽叽喳喳的跑上了楼，然而在进班的一瞬，却猛地安静了下来。

The four of them chattered and ran upstairs, but the moment they entered the classroom, it abruptly fell silent.

他们一起看到了黑板上的那六个字，不大，却足够刺目：方茴喜欢陈寻。

They all saw those six words on the blackboard—small but painfully eye-catching: "Fang Hui likes Chen Xun."

小草第一个动了，她一句话没说，愤愤的走回到自己的位子上。

Xiao Cao was the first to react; without saying a word, she angrily walked back to her seat.

椅子被她重重的拽了出来，蹭过地面发出难听的声音。

She pulled her chair out violently, dragging it across the floor with an unpleasant noise.

乔燃第二个动了，他走到讲台前拿起板擦，一下下的把那丑陋的字迹擦掉。

Qiao Ran was the second to act; he walked to the podium, grabbed the eraser, and furiously wiped away the ugly writing.

因为太过用力，黑板都在怦怦震动。然后他转过身，面色冷峻的说：“值日生下次要记得，上课之前把黑板擦干净！”

He scrubbed so hard that the blackboard trembled. Then he turned around, his face stern, and said, "The duty students need to remember to clean the blackboard before class next time!"

陈寻第三个动了，他拉了拉身旁的方茴，低声说：“先回座位吧。”

Chen Xun was the third to move; he tugged at Fang Hui's sleeve and whispered, "Let’s head back to our seats first."

而方茴却始终一动不动。

But Fang Hui remained motionless.

她的眼神空空的，死死盯住黑板，脸色苍白得可怕。

Her gaze was blank and fixated on the blackboard, her face horribly pale.

其实她根本没在看那已经消失的文字，也没在听陈寻对她说的话。

In reality, she wasn’t even looking at the now-vanished message, nor was she listening to what Chen Xun said to her.

她已经被久违的羞愤和害怕侵蚀掉了，那种撕心裂肺的感觉铺天盖地，揉碎了她小小的情感，使她的尊严瞬间崩塌。

She was engulfed by a long-lost feeling of embarrassment and fear; that heart-wrenching sensation overwhelming her, shattering her small emotional world, and crushing her dignity in an instant.

方茴眯着眼睛说，那天的天气特别好，可是她还是觉得很冷很冷。

Fang Hui narrowed her eyes and recalled that the weather was particularly nice that day, yet she still felt unbearably cold.

她真的绝望以为，她的青春会就此化作骨灰。

In her despair, she truly thought that her youth would turn to ashes.

我的心又一次揪了起来。

My heart twisted once again.

她那时从未奢求过什么，胆小如她，甚至还不敢接受陈寻的追求。

At that moment, she had never really desired anything. Timid as she was, she didn’t even dare to accept Chen Xun’s affection.

她只是小心翼翼的保护着自己的那一点点的隐秘爱恋，在别人未发觉的角落，偷偷拿出来自我陶醉一番，然后再趁别人不注意，珍重的收好。

She was simply cautious in protecting her little secret love, sneaking it out to indulge herself in its warmth in unnoticed corners, and then carefully putting it away again when others were not looking.

就像一只松鼠，傻兮兮的守着冬天最后一枚橡果。

Like a squirrel foolishly guarding the last acorn of winter.

然而这颗橡果最终被发现，它被展示在所有人面前，被讥笑嘲讽，最后被毫不留情的一脚碾碎。

However, this acorn was ultimately discovered, put on display for everyone, ridiculed and mocked, and finally crushed underfoot without mercy.

我想，那只松鼠，一定肝肠寸断。

I thought that squirrel must have been heartbroken.

方茴回到了座位，一上午，她都趴在桌子上没动缓。

Fang Hui returned to her seat, and the whole morning, she stayed hunched over at her desk, unmoving.

老师上课问她怎么了，还是乔燃帮她回答说不舒服。

When the teacher asked her what was wrong, it was Qiao Ran who helped her by saying she wasn’t feeling well.

陈寻在后面也没上好课，他一直盯着她瘦削的背，随着她轻轻的颤抖，而愈加烦乱。

Chen Xun couldn’t focus on class either; he kept staring at her thin back, which trembled slightly, and became increasingly restless.

直到中午吃饭，方茴才抬起头来。

It was only at lunch that Fang Hui finally lifted her head.

她的眼睛已经哭肿了，校服袖子上还能隐约看见水印。

Her eyes were swollen from crying, and there were still faint watermarks visible on her uniform’s sleeves.

陈寻看着她拿了盒饭默默坐回到自己位子上，再也忍耐不住走了过去。

Chen Xun watched her take her lunch box and silently sit back in her seat. Unable to hold back any longer, he walked over.

他替方茴盖上已经打开的饭盒盖，说：“走，一起吃饭去！”

He closed the already opened lid of her lunch box and said, "Come on, let's go eat together!"

方茴咬住嘴唇，缓缓摇了摇头。

Fang Hui bit her lip and slowly shook her head.

“我已经帮你把椅子拿好了，快点。”

"I’ve already saved you a seat; hurry up."

“我不去。”因为哭过，方茴还带着点鼻音，她伸手去拿筷子，陈寻一把抢了过来。

"I’m not going." After crying, Fang Hui’s voice still had a nasal tone. She reached for her chopsticks, but Chen Xun snatched them away.

“你又没错，干吗这样！难不成以后都不说话了？”

"Why are you acting like this? You didn’t do anything wrong! Are you really going to stop talking to me from now on?"

“我真的不去了。”方茴几乎又要哭了出来。

"I really don’t want to go." Fang Hui was on the verge of tears once more.

“好，那我们都上你这里吃！”陈寻回身搬了桌子，冲乔燃和赵烨喊，“嘿，过来吧！”

"Fine, then we’ll all eat with you here!" Chen Xun turned around and moved a table, calling out to Qiao Ran and Zhao Ye, "Hey, come over!"

赵烨因为训练，所以没能亲眼看见早上的那幕，他听乔燃大概说了说，正不知道怎么安慰方茴。

Zhao Ye had missed the morning scene due to practice and didn’t know how to comfort Fang Hui, but when he saw Chen Xun calling him, he hurriedly grabbed his lunch box and came over.

看见陈寻招呼他，忙拿着盒饭跑了过来。

"Today, there are potatoes! Potatoes!" Zhao Ye bent over eagerly, peering at Fang Hui's face. "Fang Hui’s potatoes!"

“今天有土豆啊土豆。”赵烨弯腰使劲看方茴的脸，“方茴的土豆！”

Fang Hui gave him a helpless glance.

方茴无奈的瞥了他一眼。

"Look again! Look again!" Zhao Ye pretended to glare and said, "If you look again, I’ll eat you!"

“再看！再看！”赵烨假装瞪着眼睛说，“再看我就把你吃掉！”

Qiao Ran came over as if nothing had happened and helped Fang Hui remove the table cover, turning to shout, "Xiao Cao, come on!"

乔燃也走了过来，他就好像什么事也没发生一样，帮方茴撤下了桌套，扭头说：“小草，快来啊！”

"I need to talk to He Sha about something; you all go ahead and eat," Xiao Cao said as she walked toward the other side with her meal.

“我跟何莎说点事，你们先吃吧。”小草拿着饭走向了另一边。

"Don’t mind her; she’s just afraid I’ll steal her potatoes!" Zhao Ye casually opened Fang Hui’s lunch box and said, "How stingy!"

“甭管她，她就是怕我抢她土豆！”赵烨毫不客气的打开了方茴的盒饭说，“抠样儿！”

"Shut up! You think you’re like everyone else!" Xiao Cao shot him a glare.

“死去！你以为都跟你似的！”小草狠狠白了他一眼。

Amidst the bickering between Zhao Ye and the others, it seemed everything had returned to normal.

在赵烨他们的吵闹下，好像一切都恢复了正常。

Yet Fang Hui knew she could no longer be as she was before.

而方茴知道，她已经不能再像以前一样了。

The emotions of youth are always delicate and sensitive, and she understood all too well what the gazes of her classmates meant.

少年时代的心思总是纤细而敏感，她很明白班里同学们的目光意味着什么。

For the children facing textbooks and exams every day, this was indeed an event worthy of excitement.

对于每天面对课本试卷的孩子们来说，这就算是值得兴奋一阵的大事件了。

Even though she, at the center of the incident, was painfully pitiful.

尽管作为事件中心的她，足够可悲。